Well, I just came home from the vet, and I had to let my little Snoopy Sally cross the Rainbow Bridge.  Just devastating, I must say.  All the way there I told myself that I would take him back again tomorrow and that this was just to assure me that he would make it through the night. But no, the doctor said if he were her cat, she would do it tonight, and that she could not  promise that all would go well tonight, and he certainly would not make the weekend, which I already knew.

I told her how he had vomited up his Purina indoor kibble this morning and that he had immediately vomited up the last half syringe of AD that I had given him about 4 pm, and she said that as yellow as his jaundice is and has been for quite  a while,  she was absolutely amazed that he had not begun vomiting much, much sooner. 
He did not seem at all upset by his trip there tonight, first time for that. He was good as gold, and I was able to sit and cuddle him about a half hour or even more to make up my  mind. 

She assured me that each time I had come thinking it might be time,  she had been able to honestly tell me NO, he was NOT ready yet, but today, she could absolutely not say that.  And she said his eyes were telling her that he wanted her to let him rest.  His eyes did look very, very tired, and very distant, perhaps focused on another place, and they had no joy or comfort in them. His eyes had looked like that all day, and even some of last night.   Soooo, I cuddled with him a long time, and then I was able to hold him in my arms when she did it, kissing him all the while, and I  must say it was very peaceful indeed.

I feel certain he would not have made the weekend, or even through tomorrow.  he was not really comfortable last night, and did not curl up by my stomach as usual, he crawled under the covers by my back, and was not  his affectionate self.
Soooo, it is over, and I must believe he is in a much better place, in his maker's arms and with all my other beloved furry babies.
Still it is an awful thing to have to do, and I pray for forgiveness, even tho I hope I saved him some suffering at the end,

Thank you all for your caring support, and advice; I cannot tell you how much it meant and still means to me.  Bless you all.

I'm so sorry, BW      

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BW, I am so very sorry that Snoopy's time had come. Rest in peace sweet Angel Snoopy.
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I'm heartbroken for you, BW.  

I also wanted to mention that I feel your vet is really compassionate and kind.  It is no easy decision for anybody, and the vet surely understood how your heart was going back and forth.  As difficult as it was to let your Snoopy Sally go, it sounds like it was the best time.

Big, big, big hugs to you.

BW,
I know you were so worried about it being the "right time", but it does sound like the decision was at the right time.  You did your very best caring for him, and he knew that and loved you for it.  He is now at the Bridge and awaiting a joyful reunion with your other angel kitties.  Take care of yourself now, and find peace in your memories of Snoopy Sally.  {{hugs}} Rest in peace, sweet Snoopy Sally.      

I'm so sorry Snoopy Sally is no longer with you, BW.  But he has joined the itchmo friends who are waiting for their human pets to cross over.  {{{hugs}}}

I am so sorry Snoopy Sally had to leave you, but I think you did a wonderful job taking care of him . Right down to understanding he was telling you he was tired of fighting the disease. You kept him comfortable as long as you could and let him go peacefully as soon as he needed to. It's wonderful that your vet was so supportive. I am crying for you as I write this, but happy that Snoopy is young and healthy again  . I will light a candle for him to find his way to all of our angels.

I'm so so sorry . But please know that you right thing. And now he is at peace and in a better place.