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Title: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: trudy1 on December 19, 2011, 12:06:13 PM
Jessie didn't make it. He had throat  cancer. My heart is broken and I am lost.
I will write more later, but i just wanted you all to know. 
thanks to you all for your thoughts and prayers.


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: Spartycats on December 19, 2011, 12:16:36 PM
Oh Trudy, I am so sorry you had to say goodbye to Jessie.  He wouldn't want you to be lost; he'd want you to know that he is in the light and love.

Sending many prayers and hugs for you and your family at this sad time. 


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: Fizzy1 on December 19, 2011, 12:20:10 PM
 :'( :'( :'(. Trudy I'm so sorry you had to say goodbye to Jessie.  I know it just hurts so much.  Sending warm thoughts of peace to you.   Fly free and healthy at the Bridge little kitty :'(


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: Meowli on December 19, 2011, 12:24:29 PM
Trudy, I am so very sorry that Jesse's time had come. He is free of pain now and waiting at the Bridge with the other Itchmo angels. They wait for us as love is a bond that nothing can break. We will meet our special loved ones again.

Many many {{hugs}}  


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: bug on December 19, 2011, 12:29:40 PM
Oh, Trudy. I'm so sad about this. It was so sudden but you saved that little boy any suffering he would have gone through by taking him in and getting confirmation that it was something that couldn't be fixed. I know how hard it is to lose your heart cat. Most of us here do. I'm so sorry it wasn't a treatable condition.

I know you'll keep communicating with him, Trudy. You know he won't ever leave your side and I know he'll make his presence known to you as soon as you're open to it.

Godspeed little Jessie.

{{{{Hugs}}}}


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: catbird on December 19, 2011, 12:39:01 PM
My tears are flowing as I read this, because I know how awfully much you must be hurting.  What a shock this must be, to learn he had cancer.  But knowing is better than not knowing.

I'm so sorry you had to say goodbye today. :'( :'( :'(  Although it hurts so bad right now, it will hurt less in the days and weeks to come, I promise.

Sending all the {{{hugs}}} I've got.  Please take care of yourself.


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: caylee on December 19, 2011, 01:04:36 PM
I'm so sorry that Jessie's illness couldn't be treated. But you did your best to make sure he knew he was loved.

It may not seem like it now, but in the future, knowing that he had cancer, will make your healing journey easier than if you hadn't found the reason he was so ill.

{{{{Many hugs, Trudy.}}}}

Hugs



Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: catmom5 on December 19, 2011, 01:36:29 PM
Oh Trudy,
I'm so sorry that Jessie was so very sick. He's at peace now, and no more pain. You gave him a wonderful life with lots of love and sent him on his way to the Rainbow Bridge to be healed. Better for him, but so hard for you.

Peace and comfort to you as you grieve his passing.

Sad hugs
catmom5


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: Spartycats on December 19, 2011, 02:05:51 PM
Here is beautiful Jessie

http://itchmoforums.com/the-den-show-off-your-pet-family/jessie-james-snow-bengal-t3048.0.html;msg37519#msg37519 (http://itchmoforums.com/the-den-show-off-your-pet-family/jessie-james-snow-bengal-t3048.0.html;msg37519#msg37519)



Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: August on December 19, 2011, 02:30:03 PM
I'm so sorry to read this news.  I send many hugs and much warmth to you. 


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: shadowmice on December 19, 2011, 03:16:59 PM
I'm so sorry Trudy that you have lost your beloved Jessie James. He was such a beautiful boy; I hope the happy memories can help you through this painful time.


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: catwoods on December 19, 2011, 03:47:26 PM
Trudy I am so sorry...I know how hard it is to let go, even though you do that as part of loving them, to release them from suffering. :'( :'( :'( Hugs,warmth and sympathy going out to you. I hope you'll find comfort in the memories of Jessie's life with you.


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: lesliek on December 19, 2011, 04:34:48 PM
Trudy I know know hard this is to deal with, but Jesse is healthy and happy again. He will be waiting for you at the Bridge. You wouldn't want him to be suffering just to save you grief. I hope that happy memories of your time together will help bring smiles through your tears. Thinking of you and DH and sending big hugs !  :'( :-*


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: Sandi K on December 19, 2011, 06:05:02 PM
Trudy, I am so sorry for your loss and the grief you are going through.  Its heartbreaking.  Your Jessie James was such a gorgeous kitty.  May time ease your pain and bring the good memories forward in your mind.  You are in my thoughts and prayers.  Many {{{{hugs}}}} 


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: petslave on December 19, 2011, 06:43:00 PM
I'm very sorry that you lost your beloved Jesse go, Trudy.  As hard as it is, he is now free from the awful disease that made him so sick.  My thoughts are with you in what must be a very difficult time for you after losing him like that.  Rest in peace, Jesse James.


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: NedF on December 19, 2011, 07:50:36 PM
I'm so sorry Trudy.  :'(


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: Mandycat on December 19, 2011, 11:46:23 PM
Trudy,
I am so sorry that you had to let Jesse go to the Bridge today.   :'(   :'(  My thoughts and prayers are with you at this sad time.  Rest in peace, sweet Angel Jesse James.   :'(


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: trudy1 on December 20, 2011, 07:06:47 AM
I have no idea what I would do without all of your love and support. You are always there for me.

First, I think the maybe was in my mind and my husbands this weekend. we spent a lot of time with Jessie and he kept looking out the windown wanting to go out. we used to take him out in the summer and let him roll in the grass when we were with him. so, we let him out 4 times on Sun. Everytime he asked we let him got out for a couple of minutes. He perked right up, he really loved it. but got tired very quick and we would bring him in. then i held him a lot and loved on him. I think he had a good day.

I talked to him and cried and got a lot of things out. just held him as tight as i could.

When we got to the vets yesterday, i took him out of his carrier and held him the whole time they were getting ready, even when i signed the papers. I just kept kissing him and saying i love you, over and over.

It wasn't long after he went into surgery that the vet called, and said he he had throat cancer. a real bad cancer. just before the voice box. I asked if he was awake, and he said he was just coming to, but still had the IV in. I wanted to be there to hold him so much. but i told the vet to put him down right then before he woke up.I didn't want him to wake up in pain and then have to go through  the whole thing again.

He showed me the ex-rays when i went in. this is a very fast growing cancer, so he didn't have it long. and it was so bad in 3 places that it almost closed his whole throat off.  and a bunch of new ones starting to grow. I think he said 2 types of cancer, but can't remember. Also, thats why he didn't talk to me like he used to. it was like a person whispering.


The house is so empty without him here. Even with the other critters.
He will always be in my heart. He is my heart cat.

Thanks to your advice I will try very hard to think of the time we had together with love and laughter.

your being here for me has meant more than you will ever know. what a great bunch of friends. I love you all.
Jessie is now out of pain and at the Bridge chasing butterflys and playing in the sun.


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: caylee on December 20, 2011, 07:27:44 AM
That was a beautiful tribute to your wonderful boy, Trudy.

He will visit you in your dreams and make you happy again.

Hugs


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: catmom5 on December 20, 2011, 07:42:44 AM
You sound at peace with your decision for Jessie. It must have been bittersweet to have confirmation that there was something seriously wrong - and I hope it made your decision for him just a bit "easier" (although it's never easy). You will have lots of sad days, but before long I'm sure you will find yourself smiling at a memory of Jessie when he was well. You did the right thing for him and, yes, I believe that he is now healed, whole and healthy once again doing whatever it was that he most loved to do.

Prayers to you and your DH
catmom5


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: bug on December 20, 2011, 08:44:28 AM
It's always the hardest thing to do, but you really did right by him -- not letting him wake up first. That was all for him. He knows that.


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: JoMax on December 20, 2011, 10:28:14 AM
Trudy - sending you hugs & love & comfort as you grieve your heart boy.  I salute your love & courage in allowing him to slip away without making him wake up in pain - he is watching and knows your love and thoughts were with him as he passed to the bridge.

Take care of your sorrowing parents, Jessie boy and whisper in their hearts to ease their pain.


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: tesla on December 20, 2011, 02:15:27 PM
Trudy, my heart is still breaking for you. :'( :'(  You are in my thoughts and prayers during this sad and difficult time.  May peace find you.

{{{{hugs}}}}


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: macush on December 20, 2011, 03:18:42 PM
Oh Trudy -- I don't know what to say except it sounds like you made the oh so hard decision and you did it for him.  I know the days ahead will be difficult especially since he was your "heart" cat but you know you did the right thing.  Hopefully he is now running around the Rainbow Bridge young and happy and healthy again.  And know that many are thinking about you.   :-*


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: julia on December 21, 2011, 10:48:53 AM
I'm so sorry, Trudy :'(


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: merrihart on December 21, 2011, 06:38:30 PM
Oh, I'm so sorry, Trudy :(  This is such a hard time of year to loose such a treasured friend.  {{{hugs}}}


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: JustMe on December 23, 2011, 01:05:38 AM
I am so very sorry you lost your Jessie James, Trudy...... :'( :'( 

{{{hugs}}}


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: catwoods on December 24, 2011, 01:36:08 PM
{{{Hugs}}}


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: trudy1 on December 24, 2011, 01:57:26 PM
I've been trying to write on this all day. I did light a candle for Jessie . I love and miss him so much right now.
I keep looking for him during the day. i went to buy him a present yesterday. All the things you do, etc.
I am praying he has a wonderful first Christmas at the Bridge.
Bless you all- You're babies are in my thoughts too.


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: trudy1 on December 24, 2011, 06:07:52 PM
Merry Christmas Jessie James. I love you so much.


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: Sandi K on December 24, 2011, 06:14:30 PM
Trudy, Im holding you in my thoughts and prayers during this sad time in your life.  {{{hugs}}}


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: trudy1 on December 24, 2011, 06:21:31 PM
This is such a sad night for me. i'm really trying, but maybe it's too soon. Our first Christmas apart. It's so sad.
But i'll keep trying.
thanks for all of your prayers.


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: lesliek on December 24, 2011, 06:37:18 PM
Big hugs Trudy ! Its going to be a while before you are okay.


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: bug on December 29, 2011, 07:26:04 AM
The timing is especially sad, I know. It's so hard dealing with loss when you're expected to be all happy for Christmas. Be how you need to be, Trudy. {{{{Hugs}}}}


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: trudy1 on December 29, 2011, 12:32:06 PM
Big  {HUGS] to you all


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: JoMax on December 30, 2011, 05:21:00 AM
Hugs & thoughts to you at this sad time - the first of everything is always so hard, and even harder when the loss is so recent.  May you feel Jesse James' presence shine on you, sending love & comfort.


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: trudy1 on December 30, 2011, 06:17:30 PM
I forgot to say that i brought him home and wrapped him in a very soft blanket. He loved the very soft ones and would need on them and then lay down. he liked just washed or new. this was a perfect one for him.
I wrapped him up very special and he's nice and warm, and soft.


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: catbird on December 30, 2011, 06:26:41 PM
Trudy, that is so touching.  Your loving care for Jessie goes on and on.


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: catwoods on January 02, 2012, 02:19:24 PM
Hugs and continued thoughts and prayers going out to you, Trudy.


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: lesliek on January 02, 2012, 06:08:32 PM
Its always a good feeling to have them home again. Upsetting but comforting too.


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: trudy1 on February 14, 2012, 05:17:48 PM
I wanted to tell you all something that happened to me. About a week after I lost Jessie,I was laying in bed one morning getting ready to get up, and i heard him cry, twice. the exact same way he always "talked" to me. no one else in the house ever sounded like him.That strong yowl of his and his alone.  I just couldn't believe it. i jumped out of bed- don't know what i was thinking. But i just know it was him. I loved hearing him.
And I have heard him a few times since then.
Also, i had been cleaning out a lot of things in the house. i have an old music box a friend bought me years ago. it's broke. wound too tight , i guess. It is sitting in the living room on the floor. i didn't have the heart to throw it away yet. it's in behind some other things i have to go through. anyway, it went off all by itself. only a couple of notes. I got up and played with it but couldn't get it going. so i left it there. It has done this a few times every couple of weeks. like once every 2 weeks. or twice and then not again for a while. i am keepimg it there for while. When i am just sitting around it just starts up, just a few notes and thats it.
I love and miss him as if it was just yesterday. Still crying all the time, but all of this has helped.
 


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: catbird on February 15, 2012, 05:48:18 AM
Many {{{{hugs}}}, Trudy.  Both my mother and I had that same strange music box experience after my grandmother died (different music boxes, many miles apart).  I am glad that you are finding some comfort in these happenings.


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: JoMax on February 15, 2012, 05:51:09 AM
{{{hugs}}}


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: lesliek on February 15, 2012, 06:04:38 AM
Big hugs Trudy ! :-*


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: Meowli on February 15, 2012, 06:52:55 AM
{{hugs}}


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: Soo on February 15, 2012, 04:39:42 PM
It hurts so much when you think of them.  I believe Jessie was talking to you when you heard him those few times.  Big {{{{Hugs}}} to you Trudy. 


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: bug on February 15, 2012, 06:30:25 PM
Trudy, after Bones died, my one yard light started flashing oddly every once in a while. I couldn't make it happen and it only did it in the middle of the night. And only in the spot Bones loved to sit. They all have their ways of contacting us. i know you're open to it all. I hope you can take comfort in those signs.

{{{{Hugs}}}}


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: catwoods on February 16, 2012, 02:33:07 PM
Trudy many {{{hugs}}}. I have heard a meow that sounded just like my Pretty Girl, who left us a few months ago. So I agree you have heard Jessie.


Title: Re: Jessie James- My Love
Post by: merrihart on February 16, 2012, 03:30:59 PM
They say that cats that are truly loved never really leave.  I know I have felt what felt like a kitty jumping up on the bed, or brushing me by and thought it was Bucky or Bella, only to realize neither one was there.  I like to think it's my Angel Sooty or Angel Muffy.   :)