Thank you all for your concern! I greatly appreciate it! I haven't come to the forums in a while... it has been very hard times for me. I haven't been able to write as I haven't been able to get the strength to go through everything again. My precious baby boy left me on September 11, 07. He suffered about 5 more attacks as I mentioned before. He had a series of x-rays and an ultrasound, he saw 3 vets... The vet that performed the ultrasound found a "mass" on his spleen and also stated that it was bleeding. He had exploratory surgery and had a spleenectomy. They didn't find a "mass" it turned out that is was a pool of blood that has collected and appeared as a mass on the ultrasound. His spleen had ruptured. It also had tiny tumors on it about 5 that we could see, they looked like blisters. The spleen was sent away to pathology and the results came in about a week later. Diagnosis, hemangiosarcoma... After his surgery my boy healed up very well, he was so strong... I will never forget how brave he was... When they took him from me to get ready for surgery, they took him in to a back room and as someone walked in I got a glance at my boy sitting down waiting, he looked brave... His surgery went well, we got to bring him home about 3 days after. He wanted to start walking and presume his normal life again... he was so strong. He had an appetite, and loved his food. I started supplementing him with everything I could read about to fight cancer. I spoke to on oncologist for my options... about 3 weeks after his surgery he had another one of his attacks... this is when I knew, things had not changed... I cried so much... I held him close and he rested in my arms, about 2 hours later he started to get stronger and I took him in to the vet. (My oppinion of the vet is another story, I try not to harbor bad thoughts about it but it is hard) She took blood and sent it in to the lab, she followed with bloodwork the following day. My boy started to look a bit better, then a couple of days later he started to look a bit weak. He was still eating, and walking around he just would lay down a lot. I stayed by his side and even layed down on the floor next to him throughout the days... He never left my side all of my life so I never left his. One day, about a week after his last attack, I took him out and he did his duties... he sniffed around the yard and I followed him, I went over to look at his sool to make sure it looked normal, when I look over and he was headed for the door. I heard something so I glanced over at him when I saw him having trouble staying up... he was collapsing. My legs couldn't carry me fast enough to him... I ran as fast as I could. I picked him up in my arms and brought him in. I layed him on my bed. I knew this attack was different. He was breathing very fast and his gums were white and dry. He clenched my arm with his front paws... he stared into my face as I told him over and over how much I loved him... he was in pain.. yet he wanted to make sure I was going to be ok... I knew what I had to do... at that moment, as much as I didn't want to, I asked God to rescue my baby from the pain he was suffering. I told him I was laying him down at his feet... he stared into my eyes when his eyes started to close... I kept telling him over and over that I loved him each time I did, he would open his eyes... He clenched me again and he softly passed... He passed away in my arms. He passed away almost exactly 4 weeks after his surgery. He didn't want to go... He was strong and held on to the very last day to be with me... He was my special boy... My baby. He was with me through college and into my marriage... He was faithful and loving. He was like a child to me. I am broken inside. I miss him very much so... I know things will never be the same... God has helped me through each day and given me strength. I know I will see him again one day. I hurt but I smile when I think of how he is free from pain now. This took us very much by surprise... The vet said that the cancer appeared to be only a several months old... He was always healthy... VERY healthy. I only took him in to the vet when he had his senior exams. I guess this whole thing took a little more than month from when he had his first attack to the day I lost him. I don't know what happened... everything was so fast. I haven't been able to sleep in my bed as of yet, I was never able to sleep without him... he always slept at me feet. He was an extension of me... Always at my side. Its hard.... He is one missed baby boy...
http://www.dogster.com/dogs/107746 this is his dogster page... I am going to make a slide show in his memory soon, I will post the link when I finish it. Thank you all for your support! Thank you for your concern...
bksreo, I am so sorry for your loss, I know exactly what you are going through. I feel your pain, deeply. Hang in there... Trust HIM, he knows what he does... We WILL see our babies again!!!!!!!! I know it.....
Ancona, I am sorry for not answering your question sooner... I hadn't checked the site in a while... I got it from 4Life It was the human formula. They have a classic and a plus, for Arnold I used the Plus due to the cancer fighting properties, but for my other babies, I use the classic.
